The boldness and contrast of the light is super, certainly lives up to the collection name. Congratulations, beautiful work and a pleasure to view
I think the thing is, it would be easier to cope with if I knew
for sure that what's happening is a good thing and is just what should be happening with regards the abx. I've done something similar before where I believed the same and it was actually just progression. So yes, just hoping that all this is the abx doing 'something' good - if it's not i'm in a very bad place and have progressed a rather large step. A little glimmer of proof that something is working on being resolved would be perfect right now, but I know it's not likely even if things are going to plan because it all takes so long. It's a bit like believing in a God, you have no choice but to take it on faith without knowing for sure.
So a summary of right now for anyone following or my own notes: Worst place i've ever been with this. Eyes are screwed, can't hack light or see properly, lower back and spine is shooting off electrics and vibrating constantly which means my legs are very weak and jelly like, l'hermittes bad obviously, brain is mush, can't follow thoughts or speech very well, anxiety and depression overwhelming, fatigue huge as always, hands are concrete, pressure in head boiling over, freezing cold extremities, glands going up and down, sense of being alive and here on planet earth is utterly AWOL (i've had this 24/7 for 12 years and it's awful but jeez it's reaching levels that are soul destroying, if I let myself i'd just be sitting there like a zombie all day/night)
, can't function much to do the simplest things, fine motor is fairly gone, typing one fingered. So yes, I hope to anything this is not a natural progression and.or the abx riling the MS but not helping, if it is i'm screwed. I'm literally taking every hour and day as it comes with the mantra, "stand up, get through it, tomorrow might be better."
28/07/10, 04/10/10, 16/11/10 - CCSVi Dopplers x3 ** 12/10/10 - Poland procedure. Symptoms worsened. No improvement.
13/02/12 - Wheldon ABX protocol for 1.5yrs. Fairly stable but no improvement. Unable to source alternate ABX needed.