Shell, I wish I had one of those kind of nightmares! The two men in my life when I was diagnosed both showed their true colors shortly thereafter. A couple of friends saw me through the worst time of my life, til I found abx treatment and started to get better. Now, I'm like the energizer bunny and you can't keep me down.
I vote for backing down to the 100mg dose, too. The idea is to build up and go only as fast as your body will allow. Remember you will travel back down the same road you came up and most everything you experienced with MS will be addressed again as the cpn is killed in those spots. The spots in your brain will experience die-off and the places in your body affected by those locations will throb or twitch or whatever they first did. The parts of your body that are infected, like an injured wrist or a bad knee, will likely ache or be painful, as they are experiencing the die-off of bacteria that lodged there.
Lower your dose and give yourself a break. And you can preach no drugs to your kids later. Do what you need to for yourself now. (Um, I took a lot of Aleve to relieve my issues, so maybe you can find a happy medium?)
The difference between what we do and what we are capable of doing would suffice to solve most of the world’s problems. Mohandas Gandhi