Shell, It's so hard to have faith in something so untested, but we ARE the test and we are all passing with flying colors. You are doing really well and the fear will lift, too, as time passes. Your brain starts to clear and to comprehend and function better pretty early in the protocol, then your ability to reason improves. Fear dissipates with knowledge and confidence replaces it.
The difference between what we do and what we are capable of doing would suffice to solve most of the world’s problems. Mohandas Gandhi