As you can tell from the follow up posts, you are not alone. I have been on Avonex for over 10 years and the first few months were brutal. I can remember the nurse first coming over to show me how to inject. First we did it in an orange - wow that was easy
- then she said, OK now your leg. The panic set in, but I forced my self to jam the needle in to my tense thigh. It hurt, but it was in there. Now I just needed to push the syringe, which I somehow managed to do without passing out. I instantly got up and laid on the couch because I was dizzy. I asked how I did and she said "Well, you did OK". I wanted to punch her in the face
The next week came and I couldn't do it. I was lucky that I had a good friend who was a nurse so I called her up and she came over and did it for me. This continued for a few months until she had to go on a trip and I had to do it myself. I was able to do it and threw my hands up in victory afterwards!
Enough with my story, but here is what I recommend.
1. Get in a relaxed position. Stressed muscles are harder to push through and hurt more. I like to sit up in bed and shake my leg a little to remind myself to be relaxed. You want your leg to feel like jello.
2. Have a distraction. I put the TV on so that all of the focus is not on my injection.
3. Breathe. Once you have assembled the pen, unwrapped your alcohol wipe and bandaid, take a good deep breath, hold it and then let it out slowly. Feel your shoulders drop and your body relax. Relaxation is key.
When you are done, pat yourself on the back. You did a good job - anyone would have trouble with this. Even my nurse friend said it was much harder to inject herself than someone else.
Good luck and hope this helps.Edit: just noticed the original post was almost a year ago. I am sure they are over it by now...