In some ways I don't want to have any emotions or expectations. In other ways I have every hope and dream in the world after working so hard to accept my life and learn to be positive as a single disabled mom, knowing the present was bad and trying not to think about the future but just live for beautiful moments.
No MS treatments have worked for me except IVIg until I had the anaphylactic reaction-- well, humor and denial.
So with so much disability I don't know what to realistically expect, but I will be an honest reporter if I ever get on the computer.
anyone who knows me knows Neruda and cummings are about my favorite standby poets. I am going to post this, with a heartfelt request for your good wishes as I do this, since in my offline life I am very isolated and don't have a community of humans to support me -- I would be happy if I thought I had at least virtual support.
and then I would like to post a cummings poem I love that seems perfect for a Liberation day --
Wish me luck! I hope later I am free to feel, to allow myself to feel, and that the feelings will be amazing. I am so grateful to everyone here who has brought me to this opportunity.