I'm the one who should be desperate. I'll not live to see any more improvement in this. Not because of IRs and vascular doctors, but for absolute certain I'll be gone sooner because of the interventions of those who have given the science of neurology a bad name. For many of them it was not intentional. When people receive half a million of personal income for enrolling 100 patients in drug trials shows how quickly things can get out of hand.
I have seen the footage of Annette Funicello. I watched a friend die without any remissions. I have no illusions about the road ahead. I don't see how I'll be able to get on my recumbent tricycle next year. For some reason, though, I feel no desperation. For some reason, I have heard the word desperation mostly from healthy people, referring to those they think are less well-off. They think we have no hope. They are just jealous. And perhaps angry, at all the hope that seems to be happening lately.
The word desperation is related to the word despair. I don't indulge, myself. Use of the word desperation in some arguments is a tell, for me. It may bother some people seeing others spend money on 'violins and pianos'. It's no skin off my nose. I am not offended, as I am about some other uses of public media I have seen. I can think of better things to do than worry about a short film with decent music (if a little on the slow side).
'you ain't gettin' no younger .
' -- Desperado, Glenn Frey and Don Henley
Spain created the Camino Real from Mexico to Santa Fe, New Mexico, in 1598. Camino Real literally means “Royal Road”. As such the road is protected by garrisons at intervals along the road. Spanish law levied a toll to travelers on the Camino Real in order to pay for these soldiers. The soldiers would stop the travelers and demand the toll be paid for them to continue on. In spanish “to stop” is “parar”. And as above “desparado” is a person that was not stopped. According to their oral history, the term desparado, described travelers that did not want to pay a toll and circled, off the road, around the military posts.