That's quite the experience with trying things, I feel like a newbie.
We really can't spend a lot of time thinking about the what ifs, the time we have is too short (this applies to everyone, you never know when s**t will happen). There are too many variables with this disease to know that if we had done something different we might not be as disabled.
There are people in our lives who we need and who we want to be connected with, this is where our thoughts should linger. I have a hard time with this because I worry about what is going to happen next. My husband and son want me here and now, I try to hang on to that.
The medical community doesn't really understand much about MS, they are locked into a box as far as research goes. Time might change this and as more pwMS look for answers it might be forced on the researchers.
Has anyone taken anti-depressants?