Yesterday was a frightening day... I had not slept properly, not done my exercises (all because of time restraints and changes in the schedule) and was stressed by water in my basement. Mannnn, did I ever get it. My leg did not want to respond to me at all. I had forgotten how to walk and my balance was terrible. I am so afraid of becoming totally useless.
For the first time, the future was scaring me and still is today. I have not been here before emotionally. I am not a complainer but I felt like crying the whole night. I don't cry because if I start, who knows what will become of me. I don't want to loose it.
I see my neurologist tomorrow. She better have a suggestion. I say that and I know darn well that she has no miracle cure. I want this study on FTY720 to start soon!!!! like now!!! I have had it with being patient and hopefull. Today is my birthday. I want some good news for my present. Please....