I hate it like that too. I really do think I have accepted it, but that doesn't mean that I have to like it; I hate it. It takes away so much and that sucks. Me and Mark (skydog) were talking a bit about how the average 'target' of MS seems to be active, or in our case hyper active
people. Maybe it's because we end up nutrition depleted or something. I don't know, but I thought I'd give you some solidarity here. I, too, sometimes just hate planting the feet on the ground out of bed for the first time upon waking. My thought is always 'the first step is the first step to wearing my legs out wwaaaaay before the end of the day'. Hell, usually before noon. At any rate, I use this board to vent all the time. I can't give you any useful advice about making it better, but just know that you have many brothers and sisters who feel it too. This may sound corny, but one of my defenses has been to post in the attitude of gratitude thread. I started it when I was having a very difficult time feeling like I was ever going to give a real smile again. I don't know why, but just the exercise of scouring my brain for something I can latch onto that day that MS hasn't buggered (I'm not english, but the US term for that is not very PC
). I just think of the things that still are capable of making me happy and then write them down. It's not a panacea for the blues but, for me anyway, it helps me to look at something other than life through the shit prism.