this is sort of long. it's some of my feelings on losing my driver's license. Which at the point isn't much of a big deal, but I'm making it one. Californians love their cars, I guess, Everything is spread out, here.
If they only knew........
that's how I've been feeling, as the "lace curtain" and double vision get worse. I've had my share of accidents in the past, but all were due to me throwing caution to the wind, not ms.
I went in to renew my licence last month. I live in California; every few years we have to go in & get a new picture instead of renewing by mail. I drove myself (it's in a part of town I know very well) and had that wonderful feeling of independence that I don't experience much anymore. I took my walker, (I pretty much take it everywhere now). I got a new license, but I also got a "need for medical examination" form in a separate envelope in the mail. I wonder if it was the walker, if I took too long on the eye exam, or my driving record? A combination, I'm sure, but only one of them is a valid (and semi-valid at that...I got one letter on the exam wrong, but corrected myself) reason for suspending my license.
I don't have a dr.
I have decided that even though I drive better than ever, and am extremely cautious nowadays, AND only drive around the corner once or twice a month to go buy groceries.... So, I'm giving it up. My driving will be limited to the scooter in the grocery store (it's a fun one too, the best I've ever come across, Amigo, I think). I still get to shop for food. I'll have a ride to the grocery store.
I'm sort of tortured about losing this independence, but I'm going to go into this feeling as if it's my decision. But in the end, I might mail the form back, without a dr.'s signature, and only my arguments just to see what happens. To see if they'll give me a driving test. On the other hand, f**k it.
I'm completely torn betwixt two modes of action.
Maybe I'll get a scooter of my own and ride it down to the bus stop. Just to not be completely homebound. It'll be fine. My grandmother never drove. Ever. In her life.