So our agreed no contact period ended last week. I called him on Tuesday but it wasn't until 3am Sunday that he returned my call. He was drunk. My phone was off and he left me a voicemail telling me that there was no space for me in his future. I have read his blog. He thinks that he has returned to alcoholism, he's gained weight, he's depressed and not seeking treatment for it. He's also gotten a really bad tattoo. I think he has just given up on his future.
I have mixed emotions. I am so sad that I couldn't help him. I love him and want to be with him. But at the same time I think e's done quite a noble thing and chosen a new life for me that doesn't involve living with his alcoholism, depressiona nd MS.
I guess this is where my MS journey ends.
Thanks for listening.
I don't mean to be snooping, but this sounds like a terrible cry for help. If I were in your position and my partner had MS and was behaving this way, I would pay them a visit after I was done with my work. In person, I would want to determine where the relationship was going (I'm either staying with you or you don't want me here). For me, at least.
There's something else I'd like to add: 2 years to go to progressive is an awfully short time. If I were you, I would look into persuading your partner to pursue an antibiotic regimen. It just sounds terribly familiar to Sarah Longlands story. She was diagnosed and was progressing rapidly. Her husband, a microbiologist, decided to treat her with antibiotics aimed at eradicating the pathogen: C. pneumoniae
. You can read about their really touching and intelligent account here: http://www.davidwheldon.co.uk/ms-treatment.html
. It also includes a very feasible regimen.
Being a graduate student and pursuing a Ph.D., I imagine a little bit of extra, light reading can't hurt.