I dont know if this is appropriate for this forum, but i felt it was something that ive wanted to talk about the last few days.
I am a 23 year old female with MS and about to take my 10th copaxone shot. Preparing for tonights shot made me realise how fearful i am of the future. I have/had/have/had <<insert appropriate word here>> dreams of becoming a neuroscientist and am almost finished.. but those dreams dont seem to matter anymore as I have a big nightmarish moster to deal with (aside from university).
I was diagnosed on 12th of Jan, 2010, but i am only beginning to feel the neurologists words sink in. I have a wonderful boyfriend (who has recently proposed) and supporting family, but i am still sinking into a world of deep and never ending thoughts.
The main theme of my thoughts (ok, lets use the word FEAR) is what is to become of me in future? Will i be a fast or slow progressing case? How will i work and provide for a family if i am struggling to work in a simple job now? what is the course of my MS? etc
Please, someone snap me out of this!