I don't live anywhere near a center that uses the silva method but going to a meditation center and learning how to meditate I hope will be a step in the right direction. I'm realizing that all my life I have always been unhappy with myself - not pretty enough, not smart enough, not rich enough - and I've always wished for more. Then ms came into my life and I never go 5 minutes without thinking about it and how it affects me constantly. This has to change. I listen to Lyon talk about how his wife ignores the fact that she has ms in her daily life and goes on with her life. I think she's found the sweet spot for herself. I need to find my sweet spot. I'm starting a course in meditation Thursday to help me get there. I don't like the way ms has taken over my life. I would rather tuck my obsession with ms away and focus on my family, friendships, and work. I think meditation might help me find my sweet spot.
I met a lady the other day who was very nice. She said, "Don't worry, it robs you of the joy of the day". I am going to try to live her words.