hlm286 wrote:I'm 25 years old and was just diagnosed last year. I'm married and have a 2 year old and 3 week old little girls. When I was diagnosed last year, I was only having lehrmitte's sign and suddenly over a weekend, I went completely numb from my neck down, couldn't walk, couldn't even move my toes, couldn't go to the bathroom (I had a catheter) and was hospitalized for 4 days on steroids. When I left the hospital, I need physio and gradually regained the feeling and strength in my body. I then got pregnant and was symptom free throughout my pregnancy. My little girl is 3 weeks old and I find myself in almost constant fear of having another attack. I felt protected I guess during pregnancy because they say pregnancy helps and now that I'm not, I find myself obsessing over every sensation in my body, wondering if it's an attack coming on. How fast and hard it came on last year traumatized me and scared me so much that I'm so scared it will happen again. I just keep thinking about my daughters and my husband and how I want to be there for them and be mobile and active and fun with them. Sometimes I just start balling because I'm so afraid of how my life might turn out. I try to eat healthy, I try not to eat a lot of dairy or gluten, I'm starting an exercise regimen, I take vitamins, I just need to get a handle on the mental aspect. How do I stop living in fear of MS and the future? I know worrying is bad for you and stress makes things worse, I just don't know how to stop worrying about it. I worry so much about the affects disability would have on my children and husband and I worry about my children getting it. I guess I'm so afraid of disability as well because I don't really know anyone with MS that has had it for years and lived a full mobile life. I just really need advice on how to stop living in fear because it's really making me depressed and having an impact on my life and family now because I'm worrying all the time, stressed out, get angry easily and am just wasting time in this poor mental state. I feel like I need counselling to help me cope but I thought maybe advice or insight from you guys would help.
Thank you so much.
L wrote: For me it was time that stopped me worrying about MS. After a few months I realised that I was just getting on with things.
hlm286 wrote:Thank you all for your responses. I know it will take time. I just keep telling myself to take things one day at a time, appreciate every moment and live life to the fullest so I don't have any regrets. It's just hard sometimes...
Please keep the comments coming. I appreciate everyone's advice!
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