Yes, when I started this, there were basically no replies, and I thought 'oh geez, I'm being a b**ch again."
The most fabulous job I ever had, and the job I thought would be my retirement job was teaching a public speaking/presentation skills class to physicians on behalf of pharmaceutical companies.
While that 'big money' is gone, I can do it elsewhere, but I'm terrified to be up in front of a room of professionals, and lose my thread. Though I always had notes wih me as a security blanket, I NEVER used them. My fear is that no one wwould feel THAT bad about me going for notes, I would be sloppy doing so because I'd have forgatten where I was, so wouldn't know where to look to regain my place...FEAR. and because part of the message is to be so familiar with your material you're not reading from Power Point or notes, it kinda takes the steam out of that point huh?
Anyway, my salvation may yet come in that I learned the program in the mid 90s or so, so it's in there in th long term part, it's just the retrieval. And the part that's changed is the 1st 15 minutes or so. YIKES, really changed. The opening is the part where you're testing the climate of the room, and capturing them, so if you screw it up the next 1.5 hours is torture.
It scares me so much that I am too lazy to get on the project going. Roman Candle up the arse perhaps.
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle..