Hang in there Melissa. I know it's hard to stay calm. If it is ms one thing I would suggest you do is to start to limit your diet right now. Won't hurt it and it could very well help. It did for me. I'm down to eating chicken breast, fish, green vegetables, almonds, and water. My symptoms started to improve as soon as I started excluding things from my diet. If you smoke, stop. Should have plenty of motivation the way you're feeling. Can't stress enough to only drink water. No coffee, tea, milk, or soda.