I have not been to active on here for a while, so I'll give you a brief:
DX 10 years with RRMS. Still fully functioning and working FT. Fatigue is becoming a problem (which I am being treated for with modanifil AKA Alertec). Single mother of 6 year old.
I am currently 10 years into a career which requires me to do a lot of report writing, data analysis and planning. Unfortunately, the cognitive changes I have experienced in the last 3-4 years have affected these specific areas and it is almost impossible for me to do my job well. My clarity in thinking in this constructive, creative mode is very short, and requires a HUGE amount of concentration, which is also largely gone from the MS.
I equate my ability to think now to someone with ADHD. Short bursts, unpredictable. My short tern memory is not reliable. My organizational and planning skills have gone to the dogs, and I struggle to set priorities. I am constantly feeling lost and spend a LOT of my time backtracking, trying to figure out where I was with a project or paper, and where I had intended to go with it.
I have worked for my employer off and on for 9 years. They are aware of my DX, but it has not impacted my career too much until now. I recently finished a contract with the manager I have worked for since being hired, and after a few months of unemployment I am now working under a different manager, who was unaware of my DX and hired me specifically for the skills (writing, statistics etc) that are most impacted by MS. I am just coming up to my 3 month review and end of probation. I know my performance has been lacklustre, but regardless of how much effort I put in, I just can't do any better. My new manager is accomodating me as he can, but I doubt he can find work that suits my abilities at my current pay level.
Obviously I am horribly disappointed. I am in a career I LOVE, and just finished my Masters (while working FT). Cutting down my hours will not fix this, I have tried. So what I need is some advice, or stories to help me go about re-focusing my career. Has anyone had to do this? Is there somewhere you can go to get an assessment, or help planning? I cant go back to school FT, I have a daughter to care for and bills to pay.
Please, any advice you can give would be GOLD.