ok and just to rant a little more, there was this big confusion with the lab, and i was like 'doc, i think the lab is doing the wrong test this time!' and i carefully explained how i noticed and what i understood to have happened (unfortunately pissing off the doc's office staff in the figuring out process), but my doc questioned why i wouldn't want the test they were doing, and i was like fine, but it's not comparable to the first test, and it's not a good indicator anyway (i didn't have abstracts with me to back me up).
so my doc consulted another doc of mine, and between them they decided, no the lab did the wrong test LAST time, and i felt really stupid for getting all frantic about it, and really stupid for thinking i knew what was the right thing to test, and i fretted about it all night, and this morning finally took a deep breath and forgave myself for making a mistake.
but i just double-checked some facts... and i was so RIGHT, they ARE doing the wrong test this time. i KNEW it. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy