Loobie wrote: I think I may have to finally accept this disease AND I DON'T WANT TO. It just pisses me off. Not from a why me place, but it just does anyway.
First, you're not alone. Come here vent, we all understand. We are all here to support each other through thick and thin.
Second, if you need professional help, go for it. I am even considering a psychologist to speak with concerning my struggle with MS, my job, my wife and my life.
Third, make sure you take 4,000 IUs of vitamin D along with 2g of pharmaceutical grade Omega-3 fish oils with your dinner. This should help your mood. Make sure you get at least 7 hours of sleep every night.
Fourth, if you really see your symptoms progressing, try the antibiotic protocols discussed in these forums. Along with the right diet and supplements (make sure you do not take abx with calcium and vitamin D).
Finally, go see the movie Borat for a good laugh. It is important to get your mind off of MS and get on with life.