hello to all,
while i've posted a few comments, i've probably been more of an observer...i've read a lot of poignant and touching comments by many members and thought i would vent a little bit. i am a thirty-something year old guy who had one significnat attack about 2 years ago. i was pretty sick for about a year, but eventyually slowly recovered. these days, i've been pretty fortunate in that i only have a few mild symptoms, that are not visible. the attack derailed many aspects of my life, but i've been able to rebuild much of it.
i know compared to how others are doing, i may be pretty lucky. that being said, i've been in the dumps lately. in the past few months, i've re-entered the dating world (i had been out of it for a few years). not always a friendly game to begin with. sometimes, i forget i have MS and feel that i can date the same type of women i have before i became sick. other times, i feel like i have to give in to the disease and settle with someone who i have less feelings for.
recently, i was dating a woman who i was really starting to like. to be honest, this was the first woman i've liked in several years. eventually, it led to sleeping together. while not unexpected, it was still a little surprising. thus, i did not bring the "magic blue pill" that can help in these situations. ever since i've had this lesion on my spine, this type of activity has been more of a challenge. to make a long story shorter, while it went okay, it didn't go perfect. i was pretty embarassed and ended up leaving that night. suffice to say, she wasn't happy. i did not have a feel if she would even be accepting of the MS, so i kept that private, but tried to expalin it in more general terms, while still apologizing. she dumped me.
tonight, i went out on a date with a new woman and listened to her (a nice gal) go on and on about people she knew who had ALS and MS and how fortunate WE are that we don't have these conditions. it was strange in that she was the one who brought it up and i just sat and listened.
thanks in advance to all who take the time to read this.