I understand. It just feels great to not have any flare ups and be off of the sudamedrol. that stuff makes me crazier than a shit house rat. Pardon the language. Not only does it make it hard on me but my entire family has to suffer. I made the mistake of uttering the words to my wife "I am the one with ms here" boy was that stupid. My wife is a very smart and beautiful women and was quick to put me in my place. She is so right, when it comes to ms it is like the whole family has it because every aspect of the illness has an impact on them. Be it emotionally, financially or whatever. This is something I really need to work out. Just glad to be running at an even pace, thats all.