I sit in reflection upon the new year and the old one going out the door.
Considering this message board as a safe haven of understanding, for we share a most common and unwelcome burden upon our lives, each unique and individual as the person facing the screen.
My last twelve months have consisted of learning. Learning what works, what doesn't and what to try next. It's difficult not to become overwhelmed and frustrated. Through it all, I find relationships the most difficult to maintain. The understanding people and the not so understanding people, who I must learn to live with in life. It is slightly ironic, that I, the one with ms must learn patience and find a way to understand the people who do not understand me.
Personally, the new year is not about curing an illness, but rather having an illness cure old ideas. A cure is on the wish list for one and all, but I would rather take the thought that good can come from suffering. I have made closer bonds, I have found true friends, I appreciate a good day, I take nothing for granted and I am more forgiving of my own imperfections. The beauty is, I have been given this train of thought much sooner than it would be earned in my senior years. For that alone, I am thankful.
The old ideas of how life "should be" lived are thrown out the window. I don't really know at what point I became so conventional. I've never been one to follow the concept of predetermined order, except when forming a sentence. On occasion, sentences are even difficult to complete..."now what was I going to say?".
So with that thought, my only attainable resolution is to enjoy unconventionality, pray for more creativity and find contentment in the present.
I do look forward to hearing other thoughts on the new year approaching. I enjoy reading the positivity and encouragement given and received by this forum. You are all more valuable than you know.
Cheers to a Happy New Year and Many Blessings.