Actually, tho, I don't think I'll ever reach total acceptance of having MS.
Am fighting it too, just not with CRABS. And, oh yeah, there is always that relapse fear, along with various other. Research? Well, have been doing that since Day One and have been accused by frusturated doctors that I "think too much," because of it.
Am not completely anti-drug, just still looking for the right one(s). Anti-virals, antibiotics, and LDN are what I'm researching, now. Hope to know more about the direction I'll head, by the end of the week, when I get two dozen+ lab test results back.
Sure hope Avonex works well for you--that you never relapse, have site reactions, develop neutralizing antibodies, liver toxicity, etc.
I do think that for both of us, our fighting attitude will be the key to any of our successes