RedSonja wrote:Well, hello, sorry to hear you've got MS but nice to see you here, if you understand me.
I understand completely...and thanks for the welcome.
Yes, anxiety, we all have that. But I can reassure you a bit; most of us don't get worse, or at least not quickly. We just keep soldiering on, you get used to the fatigue and numbness. If you can get the CRABs then do take them, they help most of us. The reaction is different for everyone, by the way, so try one and if you don't like it then try another.
You will find when the drugs have started working (takes a few months usually) you can relax a bit. Go for a massage, take up tai chi... MS isn't deadly, isn't infectious, isn't heritable. There are other illnesses much harder to bear. Life continues, though maybe in a lower gear some of the time.
Actually, I almost feel guilty posting here. While this exacerbation really scared me, I realize that there a lot of folks here who are having a much harder time of things than I am. To be honest, getting the MS diagnosis was almost a relief, considering the alternative. When I was admitted to the hospital, I was brought to the oncology ward, which was even scarier yet. I was told later that evening that the reason I got a room in oncology was because the hospital was pretty much full, but for a period of time during the first night, I was starting to think that I had a tumor on my spine, and that no one was telling me what was really going on.
I've noticed that, since this attack, I don't seem to have the strength or endurance that I had before. I get tired at the gym pretty quickly, and I can't lift the weight I used to. There have been other symptoms that have come and gone since this exacerbation, notably hand cramping, but other than occasional fatigue, I'm pretty much back to normal. My problem is that I spend too much time thinking about things, I guess.
You are lucky that your wife is supportive. Many people here don't have that comfort. Hope to hear from you again.
You're right; I'm extremely lucky in that regard. She has been amazing throughout this whole ordeal, and I couldn't ask for anyone to be more supportive than she has been. By the same token, she doesn't let me take things too seriously, and she's there to provide the proverbial kick in the ass when I start getting down. She's a tough little cookie; sometimes I think that she has more inner strength than I do.
Thanks once again for the welcome, and the words of encouragement. Glad to be here, and hope that I can make a positive contribution to the forums.