I've started my second week on the antibiotics and I thought it was time that I gave an update:
Although I still have pins and needles in my feet and right thumb, I have lost the numbness. For example, I can now feel the texture of the carpet under my feet. I'm still suffering with fatigue, it hasn't diminished in any way.
I have a clearer head and I think the euphoria is gone. I'm sad about the euphoria as it gave me licence to say whatever I wanted! (I wanted to put a twisted evil emoticon here but it seems that they aren't working!!!) I'm not sure if I'm so used to living with it that I don't notice it anymore or that it really is gone. I will analyse this one for a few more days and see if I have anymore situations where I lose control of my emotions, (I can get hysterical laughter over mildly humourous incidents).
I have discussed the way that MS has changed my personality with my husband. The euphoria and the cognitive impairment have both contributed to it. It is a strange irony but I like the euphoria, I am at risk of hurting people's feelings, but so far I have managed not to, it just makes me a happier, more care free person. The cognitive impairment however, makes any story telling or explanations labourious because I have a need to 'over cook' things as I need to 'think' out loud and people get impatient. I also have to ask people to explain things again, one of my most repetitive sayings is, 'What are you trying to say, I don't understand.' I know that my cognitive impairment may take a long time to improve, if ever. So I think that I may have lost my fun euphoric side but I'm still a slow thinker.
I believe that there is a difference between suffering from a 'fog' and the deeper cognitive impairment that I am also a victim of. The fog has lifted. It was like a wall that had been built in my head that made concentrating difficult and exhausting, or another way of describing it; white noise being in the way of my thinking. (see I'm over cooking it again!!)
For me, MS really is an invisible illness, as physically I'm okay, most of my problems have been inside my brain.
I haven't had any Herxheimer reactions but that may be down to the fact that I haven't had MS for that long, I don't know.
Making sure that I stick to the regime is heavy going as I'm taking so many pills that I rattle but I am determined to stick to it rigidly.
I'll be back when/if there is anything further to report.