Just need to vent....
Posted: Sun Sep 12, 2010 4:36 pm
Does anyone ever just have a day where you are just pissed off at the shear fact that you have MS?? I think I'm having one of those days. I'm not playing the "I'm a victim" game, but just wish some things would improve. I've tried to remain strong along the way, but today was just a little off.
I had my first real breakdown since I was diagnosed (its been almost 2 months). I did the solumedrol in the beginning and just took my 5th Avonex shot last night (which I'm already dreading taking every week). Most of my symptoms have subsided except for the fact that I can't see a damn thing. Everything is blurry to me, I can't make out people's faces until I'm standing about 3 feet away, watch TV from any distance, or read a street sign unless I'm right up on it. This is by far the most frustrating symptom I've had of MS so far. I just wonder if this is ever going to improve? I'm 29 years old, I just got married and I feel bad that my husband is bound to my MS problems with me. He swears up and down that he is not going anywhere, but I can't help but feeling guilty.This diagnosis came out of left field for us. I started having symptoms in May, was told by 2 different doctors that I had shingles (I know, I thought WTF?? SHINGLES???). My primary care physician was not convinced so she sent me to a neuro who diagnosed me after an MRI and spinal tap confirmed it was MS. Some days I forget I have this because I feel normal. Some days my eye sight gets a little better and things aren't as blurry and the next day I'll wake up and its bad again. Its like God is playing a bad joke.
If anyone has days like this (which I'm thinking most do) please feel free to weigh in and vent.
Best wishes,
Julie
I had my first real breakdown since I was diagnosed (its been almost 2 months). I did the solumedrol in the beginning and just took my 5th Avonex shot last night (which I'm already dreading taking every week). Most of my symptoms have subsided except for the fact that I can't see a damn thing. Everything is blurry to me, I can't make out people's faces until I'm standing about 3 feet away, watch TV from any distance, or read a street sign unless I'm right up on it. This is by far the most frustrating symptom I've had of MS so far. I just wonder if this is ever going to improve? I'm 29 years old, I just got married and I feel bad that my husband is bound to my MS problems with me. He swears up and down that he is not going anywhere, but I can't help but feeling guilty.This diagnosis came out of left field for us. I started having symptoms in May, was told by 2 different doctors that I had shingles (I know, I thought WTF?? SHINGLES???). My primary care physician was not convinced so she sent me to a neuro who diagnosed me after an MRI and spinal tap confirmed it was MS. Some days I forget I have this because I feel normal. Some days my eye sight gets a little better and things aren't as blurry and the next day I'll wake up and its bad again. Its like God is playing a bad joke.
If anyone has days like this (which I'm thinking most do) please feel free to weigh in and vent.
Best wishes,
Julie