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So far I have only seen one post from 2012, most are from 2010. Has no one gotten MS in the past two years?? Or have you all lost the power to use your arms? I pray for the first and sincerely doubt the latter. I have had MS since I was 17, and I am currently 31. First symptom was optic neuritis and going blind in both eyes. A Few months passed and I got an eye back, but just one. I have been very fortunate to only suffer mental issues, such as anger, frustration, anxiety and bouts of terror, I do not know how lucky that is BUT I know I am not in a wheel chair and hope everyone on this site or in the world that is in one never gives up the will to live and to fight. Until I broke my l5 I was a very accomplished martial artist, yes training for it with ms, once I could see again I began refusing to simply lay down and let it pull me under. But life has taken place, things are different now and I am supported by my girlfriend who is an Angel sent from the heavens above. I have been accepted to "Access" a ny state program to retrain those who have lost their way. I was a deli worker, until I cut myself too many times and I could not do the work anymore. So now hopefully I can use my computer skills to my benefit and gain employment through that avenue. A field within the job market I can be used within, to finally feel like a man once more in the eyes of all those who love me. It is the double edged sword for us. You get it too young and life is pretty much over before it starts, or you get it when you have a family to support and you lose everything. Because we all can not be Anne Romney living in a castle with maids and butlers. I am sorry and saddened to learn that this mostly attacks women. I guess maybe in a way this is good in that a woman can be cared for by a husband. But a husband can not be supported by his wife, not forever anyway. But I will admit I do not enjoy the constant hot flashes, that is one thing I bet you ladies can do without even breaking a sweat. Or at least I hope so. I am sorry if I have offended any of you with my words, and hope at least someone else with MS can share with me their story cause frankly I have been running from this for so god damn long. Now is time to try and change things. Live to 60 maybe 70, because if I have to live I at least want to try and be healthy and help my girlfriend make the payments on bills. Thank you to anyone for taking the time to read this, I appreciate it and no matter whom you pray to even if you do not. Tonight I will pray for you, and everyone you know.

Sincerely,
Paul Robert

I guess I will leave my last name out but it means plain in french lol

QUOTEto finally feel like a man once more in the eyes of all those who love me. It is the double edged sword for us.

hi robert, welcome aboard. i understand where you are coming from wanting to be the "bread winner" and all. but i'm sure those that love you don't feel you are less of a man. circumstances through no fault of your own put you in this position as it has with a lot of us here.

take care and the best to you too.