At my wits end......
Posted: Thu Aug 23, 2012 1:36 am
First off I want to say I'm new to this forum and ask forgiveness for posting in wrong place if I have. Like the heading says I am at my wits end. I was diagnosed with ms in 2001 and not long after with bipolar 2. The reason I feel I the way I do is I don't know what I can do anymore. I have been getting physically weaker in the last year but have been hiding it well from wife and kids. I know she notices but I think she does not realize how bad it has gotten. I hide the pain and other things from them as to not have them worry about me. My biggest dilemma is work. I am the sole provider for my family at the moment but being so is putting a terrible strain on my body as well as my relationship with my wife. As most of us now pain is a part of MS and I deal with that on my terms but having bipolar mood swings on top of pain I see nothing but pain in the eyes of my wife and children. I can't stop working but I fear something is going to happen. I have no medical coverage and I make just enough to keep us off the list for help. I do not know what to do anymore. My wife is great and she is trying hard to find a job but as you know they are tough to come by. My pain and fatigue levels are through the roof right now. I just don't know what to do. I am asking for suggestions that I can take to help me get through this. Any help is greatly appreciated.....