Struggling and not sure what to do next
Posted: Mon Nov 06, 2017 1:11 am
I was diagnosed with MS when I was 17 after having my first episode at 16 and I’ve always had an optimistic outlook about my life despite my diagnosis. I don’t ever complain about the fact that I have MS and most people I know don’t even know I have it. My body is healthy and I don’t have many physical symptoms besides a disc herniation that I had surgery on, but I’ve been able to trek in the Andes, Costa Rica, and all throughout Asia without any problems. Right now I’m in my 3rd year of college majoring physics and I’m really struggling. I’ve always grown up being told “you’re so smart” and I was in special advanced classes in my elementary/middle school years and then did AP classes in high school. Even after my diagnosis I didn’t have many problems in school, then in college I started to struggle. At first I thought it was because I didn’t know how to study because I never really needed to before so I changed my study habits and things were a little easier. Then my sophomore year I had another small episode and after that I really started to have problems with my academics. I went to my neurologist and had a bunch of neuropsychological tests done and the doctor said I’m still as smart as I’ve always been. She told me that if I was struggling so much then I should just drop out of school as the stress wasn’t good for my body. Now I just failed my 2 of my midterms even though I study for all my classes every night and go to every lecture/recitation and do all the homework/practice problems. My family is really supportive and have said I can stay an extra year if I have to retake classes but I’m frustrated. I’m really trying my best. I also have ADHD and take vyvanse which helps me focus but only for a short time. At this point I don’t know what to do…I’m tired of everyone telling me to study and work harder when I’m already doing all that I can. I don’t want to drop out of school and I’m trying to have a positive outlook but seeing my test scores and knowing I’m working twice as hard as everyone else but my efforts are still not enough makes me upset. Does anyone have any suggestions on what I should do next?