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I had this dream in 1994, was diagnosed in 1998.
I kept a dream diary for a few years, and I found a dream I described - once I read it it came back to me with a bang. It was super-vivid, I woke drenched in sweat the night I had it and didn't sleep afterwards.

Does anyone make anything of this (apart from the fact that I'm bonkers ), or is it just a load of aul nonsense?

I was in an old stone mill, passed by the millrace where I saw myself in a canoe.) I know I know, I was paddling my own canoe.) I get that part of the dream.
Then I was climbing the stairs through the mill. At one point I looked to my left and there was no wall, the mill was ruined, all the floors had gone. I got to the top of the stairs and amazingly double doors (like on a ship) opened into a bright modern room - it was a very upmarket bar. Lots of people were there, chatting and talking. A few feet in front of me, up in the ceiling, were deep light tubes - the ceiling had these deep circular windows set in the roof, and as I waked under them, I could see the sky.

Suddenly amidst all the soothing burble of lots of people talking, I suddenly knew aliens were coming. I felt absolute terror. As I looked at the people I knew I had to warn them. Suddenly none of us could hear, a screeching white noise filled the air and I could hear no-one (4 years later I went totally deaf in one ear and have constant tinnitus in both ears). I was screaming, "get away from the portholes" -in the dream I meant the light tubes in the ceiling. I was screaming as loud as I could but no-one could hear. Then the buzzing intensified and a bright light shone down into the room through the windows in the ceiling, columns of bright light. I knew it was too late. Tubes of light shone down into the room and very very slowly, small, intensely bright pink rods of light floated down. I knew that these pink rods would infect everyone. Once this had happened everyone in the room went mad. They started to attack each other, ripping each other apart. I woke screaming.

Ok, do you think that this was my subconscious warning me about MS coming, or was it just a case of too much cheddar cheese before bedtime?

WW...
I live in LA. Get me a script as soon as possible and we'll have a hit!

Seriously, you had a VERY vivid dream...since you remember colors and sensorial things like sounds and not being able to hear. I'm a jungian- Jung said we need to pay attention to these kinds of dreams. He loved to write about walking thru old buildings and entering new rooms, he likened these buildings to our souls. Paddling thru the mill at first sounds lovely to me, peaceful, harkening back to a simpler time. Then the old is destroyed, leading to the stark contrast of modernity. I think your next room reminds me of a medical facility complete with MRI tubes (or a spaceship.)

I also believe in the power of the collective unconscious, that we pick up energy from the world around us. You've related this dream to your MS, since it represents being out of control, knowing something bad is going to happen, and not being able to change it. I would say it could also be a harbinger of larger universal problems: people just sitting around, not doing anything while our world goes to hell...You are the screaming Cassandra, while the old ways are destroyed by global warming, famine, war, disease...all things which are changing us and tearing us up. I say, find a way to paddle back to the mill...

Well, that's my cheery take on the dream. I'm afraid our time is up, and that will be $250...

AC

Thanks AC.
Ahhh.
I feel so much better now!

I just was curious myself if the pink rods meant anything. Was my subconscious telling me that pink-rodlike bacteria were invading my brain (through the holes) and causing my system to attack itself?

Even thinking of this dream makes me feel anxious so many years later.