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I was dx with ms 5 years ago after almost dying giving birth to my 4th child, the drs. Believe this was the cause of my ms. I went on rebif but after 2 1/2 years of horrible flu like symptoms and depression I decided ms pain was better to deal with than rebif, so I took myself off. I haven't been on anything since. And I don't think I'm doing myself any good. My life has changed dramatically, going through a messy divorce etc, the stresses have gotten to be way to much for me to handle. Thinking I'm so alone and useless my new boyfriend has shown me I do have people that love me and that are there for me and now it's my turn to be there for them, being as healthy as I possibly can. It's difficult I have panic attacks daily. I suffer from cronic fatigue and cronic pain, I have no motivation to better myself even though I know I need to it's still not enough, and to make matters worse I got injured at work 6 months ago and do nothing but sit around the house and being out of work for so long I no longer have health insurance. I'm at a loss, hoping this small step posting on this board will help me get the motivation I desperately need and a better understanding of alleviating my symptoms.

Carrie

Welcome to ThisIsMS, Carrie. Your boyfriend is right: you are not alone.

You may find the experiences of another new member helpful in your own situation with chronic pain. Please read the thread started by MSSufferer: http://www.thisisms.com/forum/general-d ... 18350.html

There may be solutions to some of your problems, besides Rebif or other medications.

You have found a new circle of friends here at this site; most of us are not scientists or "experts," but we will try to answer any questions you ask. We are glad you found us.

Carrie i know how you feel and as much as i say your not alone, you are and i know its hard but you have people who would be lost and sad with out you around, i am 19 with a two year old and have had ms for about 4years and i know people and our families cant see or feel the pain we go through but you need to keep pushing your self to live life as best you can. And as for meds god knows i am not a doctor but try another treatment and see if it helps.

Racine

Thank you both of you, I guess I'm dealing with a lot more mentally than I thought. I'm so tired of trying I just want to throw in the towel. I keep telling myself everyone would get over me not being here, my kids have their dad tho he's a horrible father and leaves them home alone most of the time, I just don't know what to do any more nor do I care to do anything. I guess I'm in a very dark place and it just gets darker

Carrie, how timely that you write your feelings on this particular day! You have said that everyone would get over you not being here – let me tell you that YOU ARE WRONG!

Twelve years ago tomorrow, November 7, my brother-in-law committed suicide. His wife and two children (10 and 13 at the time) have suffered and missed him ever since. There is sadness spread over every holiday, graduation, every event that should be happy for the entire family, not just his immediate family. We try to understand that he was in the throes of terrible depression, that he would never have done this in a healthy state of mind, but we live forever now with the question: What could we have done?

Your friends at this website want to help you, but we know we are inadequate. Please talk to your doctor, your minister, your best friend… anyone who can direct you to get help. Your family cares; they need you; WE care; we need you, too. You can get through these dark times – most of us have seen similar dark times – you are in our prayers.

Thank you lynda, I am sorry for your loss, but thank you for caring enough to tell us that story. It means a lot to me, gives me something to think about with my insomnia. Lol I don't have health insurance so going to a dr is not in the cards right now, but maybe I'll talk to my friend.
Thanks again,
Carrie

Frogfairy4 wrote:Thank you both of you, I guess I'm dealing with a lot more mentally than I thought. I'm so tired of trying I just want to throw in the towel. I keep telling myself everyone would get over me not being here, my kids have their dad tho he's a horrible father and leaves them home alone most of the time, I just don't know what to do any more nor do I care to do anything. I guess I'm in a very dark place and it just gets darker.

Watch Wallace & Gromit movies. They might lift your spirits and give you something to smile about. In addition, last night I watched some comedy on TV. One guy was funny and I had a good laugh, my eyes were watering!

Why do people become comedians?

It's those damn job interview questions.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Back in rehab...

What are your biggest weaknesses?

I like to play with matches. There's nothing like a good trash can fire. I'm also a biter...

NHE