tired and want to
Posted: Fri Mar 13, 2009 5:34 am
-tired of waking up
-tied of the effort to do everything
-tired of my marrige becomming like two roommates sharing a house
-tired of thinking theres only one way to stop this
-just tired
-tired of my knees bouncing all the time
-tired of thinking how my wife and i won't have anything we wanted out of life
-want to stand to put on my pants
-want to stand to brush my teeth
-want to stand up in the shower
-want to cut my own meat
-want to pump my own gas, be able to drive first
-want to walk into a fancy resturant with my gorgeous wife on my arm
-want to make love afterwards
-want healthy people to appreciate what they have and appreciate their good health and not complain about shit that really doesn't matter
-want to play golf with my buddies
-want to never see my wheelchair again
-want to play fetch with my dog
-want my motorcycle back
-want to work again
-havig real trouble transfering from the chair
-wondering whats next
-what will happen
-relize theres only one way to do life and thats not from a wheelchair
-it's months now not years and i am grateful in a way
-wish i had a different disease
-I must come across as being so negative all the time but trust me 10 years or more ago I was just like everyone here, doing things and being so positive about life and that this disease would not beat me.
- When I read posts its funny how suggestions for symptom relief are based on how bad you are affected by ms, diet and vitamins seem to be the norm. Knowing what I do now I would eat whatever I enjoyed and not spend a nickel on supplements.
-i read all the posts on how great different things are and we forget how it is just the way ms is
-When you talk to someone about ms most think that being in a wheelchair is the worst it can do but that can just be the start. I have lost my legs so I’m in a chair all the time, but now it’s after my arms and hands and even worse my core strength. So being in a chair I have dealt with but not sure about what is coming. If I was just confined to a chair but felt normal in all the other ways I would continue with life, maybe spots or weights but I can’t so here I am.
-tied of the effort to do everything
-tired of my marrige becomming like two roommates sharing a house
-tired of thinking theres only one way to stop this
-just tired
-tired of my knees bouncing all the time
-tired of thinking how my wife and i won't have anything we wanted out of life
-want to stand to put on my pants
-want to stand to brush my teeth
-want to stand up in the shower
-want to cut my own meat
-want to pump my own gas, be able to drive first
-want to walk into a fancy resturant with my gorgeous wife on my arm
-want to make love afterwards
-want healthy people to appreciate what they have and appreciate their good health and not complain about shit that really doesn't matter
-want to play golf with my buddies
-want to never see my wheelchair again
-want to play fetch with my dog
-want my motorcycle back
-want to work again
-havig real trouble transfering from the chair
-wondering whats next
-what will happen
-relize theres only one way to do life and thats not from a wheelchair
-it's months now not years and i am grateful in a way
-wish i had a different disease
-I must come across as being so negative all the time but trust me 10 years or more ago I was just like everyone here, doing things and being so positive about life and that this disease would not beat me.
- When I read posts its funny how suggestions for symptom relief are based on how bad you are affected by ms, diet and vitamins seem to be the norm. Knowing what I do now I would eat whatever I enjoyed and not spend a nickel on supplements.
-i read all the posts on how great different things are and we forget how it is just the way ms is
-When you talk to someone about ms most think that being in a wheelchair is the worst it can do but that can just be the start. I have lost my legs so I’m in a chair all the time, but now it’s after my arms and hands and even worse my core strength. So being in a chair I have dealt with but not sure about what is coming. If I was just confined to a chair but felt normal in all the other ways I would continue with life, maybe spots or weights but I can’t so here I am.