Anyway, when I was 21 my right side went numb. It was mild at first, I thought I just slept wrong or something but if I remember correctly after few days it was hard to walk straight so I got really scared. I could hardly hold a cup with my right hand so I called emergency as I never knew what the hell MS was and I thought it might be a stroke ! how scary that was. But after getting a CAT scan doctors said everything is fine. Then, of course, I visited few neuro doctors. One of them immediately predicted it might be MS and told me to get an MRI scan. Well after that everything started. Since I was already kind of lost in life, this thing only raised more doubts. I probably had a couple of attacks, cannot really tell cause fatigue just comes and goes but tingling recurred only for a couple of days and only in my right sole (if it's the right word for body part on which you put your shoes on) and later only in my toe. That tiredness is really killing me sometimes. I always wanted to do sports, I love jogging, and this when you just wake up exhausted is really depressing. After a 30min run in the park, I can hardly drag my legs up the stairs. I just feel tired.
About medication? Well, I don't take anything. Except for enzymes. They strongly support the immune system. I'm just trying to fight and win against this. I haven't done enough, I still used to drink beer or wine sometimes, smoked some weed (maybe this is not that harmful) and didn't follow a completely proper diet but right now I'm preparing to give everything up. It is not easy to live without having fun, even though I'm a calm person and don't like going to nightclubs and such, but having a beer and all that is really common in my country and between my friends. Also, it is quite difficult to give up everything tasty, for example pizza, but I'm prepared. I'm not weak, I gave up smoking when I was 19 (used to smoke for 2-3 years) without any meds or anything. So I'm gonna fight this.
Would be nice to talk to someone through facebook or something cause I'm lonely and misunderstood by all. Even more after giving up foods and beverages and not explaining why laziness is not the reason I'm not going to gym. I decided not to tell anyone about my condition (only my family and 2 friends know) since I feel people might look differently to me, the way I don't want them to look at me.
I had a lot of career plans and all but after this everything turned almost upside down. Still trying not to lose hope
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