Scared of having MS, parents think its my anxiety
Posted: Sat Aug 04, 2012 6:42 am
Hello. First off to let you all know im an 18 year old male. I suffer from OCD, and anxiety. I really hope I don't offend anyone here because I wasnt officially diagnosed with ms, but I just want to let you all know i am going through many symptoms and going through MANIC depression. I dont know where else to go because my parents think its my OCD and im producing these feelings. First off, let me tell you some of my symptoms. It started with waking up with a numb arm, my arm fell 'asleep' , it rarely happens but its scary. I also woke up with a numb leg recently. Also, my vision is sort of strange, i mean its nothing to severe but when I look at a screen of something the image will stay there, almost like my vision process is slowed down. Ill see a white screen infront of my eyes for a while if i just look at something bright. I also have almost an absent orgasm. But i've only experienced that once so far, because im very nervous and scared. I get some tingling sensations and hot and warm sensations at times, the tingling isnt really that noticable at all though and happens mostly when i move around and it isnt broad its mostly on the tips of toes, ankles, arms. I also get random numbness that comes and goes quickly on random parts of my body. I lost all hope in my life. I know its rare for me to get MS but it HAPPENS, and thats what my parents dont understand. I cant seem to find a link to any OTHER DISEASE than MS which is killing me. My mom still argues with me and says its all in my head and that it could be so many other things. Thats honestly BS to me though, why would i go to other diseases when my symptoms match MS the most? The only hope I have that I dont have ms is that I take hot showers at times and my symptoms dont seem to worsen or new ones to appear while im heated up. I hope noone thinks im stupid for posting this because I know most of you have and suffer with MS. I do so much research with this disease and know of people who have it. My moms step sister has it and I heard stories of her suffering. If im offending anyone just tell me and ill delete the post. Im just so scared and I dont get why im feeling this way. Could it be anything else like lyme disease, mononeuropathy, b12 deficiency(im not a vegetarian), or anything else? Im 18 and i was planning to go to college and make a life for myself but now im stopped dead in my tracks and I see myself dead in the next year. I know MS doesnt kill you but psychologically im done. My life has already stopped for me at 18. and I dont know what to do. I want to see a doctor, but my parents refuse thinking im crazy.