Just a Vent!
Posted: Thu Dec 18, 2014 8:58 pm
Hi all!
This is more just a vent than anything, although advice is always appreciated. I just think my friends are probably tired of my 'what could it be' health discussions and I don't really have anyone to talk to.
I'm a 27 year old female, currently working full time and also going to school for a second bachelors in Chemical Engineering. My symptoms started with a suddenly weak hand and a lot of twitching in June of 2011. I was horribly concerned, but eventually managed to convince myself that it was a scary fluke when the weakness seemed to go away. The global twitching remained. However, the following spring of 2012 I developed a weakness in my right hamstring, followed about a month later by a kinetic tremor (stronger in my right arm than my left) and cloudy vision in my right eye.
I was frightened enough to go to the eye doctor, who said he thought it was an infection from my contacts and prescribed eye drops. The eye was painful to move, and remained cloudy for around two months before clearing up.
I went to a GP for the tremor and he offered me anti anxiety medication. I was just happy to hear what I wanted to hear (no MS) and went on my way without the drugs.
Mind you, this whole time my right leg is still suffering from weakness. It's important to note that I'm a long distance runner, so at the time I thought it was possible that I'd simply pulled a muscle. But the weakness has persisted, and now in 2014 it is my worst symptom. The tremor is still there but it's not as bad as it was, and is mainly contained to my right arm.
Interspersed throughout this three year timespan were other symptoms including speech difficulty, muscle cramps (specifically my left hip/quad likes to seize up for long, random periods of time), and shooting pain in my shin/foot/toes.
I finally found a GP through my insurance and was referred to a Neuro. I was immediately given an MRI, but the results came in as completely clean. I'm happy for that, but only when I ignore the fact that I've got all these weird symptoms. At this time I'm still running (I gave my leg three months off to no avail) and I'm reasonably certain that my right leg is smaller than my left. I just had a second neuro appointment and he ordered a cervical MRI, a visual evoked potential test, and then blood work for something he was rather vague on. I didn't push the issue on the last because I'm fairly certain he just didn't want me worrying before the results came back. I'm fine with that - don't need any more fuel on the fire.
I guess I'm just confused. I don't want MS, but I definitely have something going on. I'm terrified that my doctor, friends, and family will start to think I'm making things up. Honestly, I'd be willing to ignore EVERYTHING else if I could just run normally again. ):
Sorry for the essay, I'm just glad to write this out and get it off my chest. I'm scared of what could be wrong now that it looks like MS is unlikely. MS is scary, but I know there are worse things too. I suppose I'll just play the waiting game and see what happens.
Thanks for reading!
Oh, and as a side note my B-12 levels are fine.
This is more just a vent than anything, although advice is always appreciated. I just think my friends are probably tired of my 'what could it be' health discussions and I don't really have anyone to talk to.
I'm a 27 year old female, currently working full time and also going to school for a second bachelors in Chemical Engineering. My symptoms started with a suddenly weak hand and a lot of twitching in June of 2011. I was horribly concerned, but eventually managed to convince myself that it was a scary fluke when the weakness seemed to go away. The global twitching remained. However, the following spring of 2012 I developed a weakness in my right hamstring, followed about a month later by a kinetic tremor (stronger in my right arm than my left) and cloudy vision in my right eye.
I was frightened enough to go to the eye doctor, who said he thought it was an infection from my contacts and prescribed eye drops. The eye was painful to move, and remained cloudy for around two months before clearing up.
I went to a GP for the tremor and he offered me anti anxiety medication. I was just happy to hear what I wanted to hear (no MS) and went on my way without the drugs.
Mind you, this whole time my right leg is still suffering from weakness. It's important to note that I'm a long distance runner, so at the time I thought it was possible that I'd simply pulled a muscle. But the weakness has persisted, and now in 2014 it is my worst symptom. The tremor is still there but it's not as bad as it was, and is mainly contained to my right arm.
Interspersed throughout this three year timespan were other symptoms including speech difficulty, muscle cramps (specifically my left hip/quad likes to seize up for long, random periods of time), and shooting pain in my shin/foot/toes.
I finally found a GP through my insurance and was referred to a Neuro. I was immediately given an MRI, but the results came in as completely clean. I'm happy for that, but only when I ignore the fact that I've got all these weird symptoms. At this time I'm still running (I gave my leg three months off to no avail) and I'm reasonably certain that my right leg is smaller than my left. I just had a second neuro appointment and he ordered a cervical MRI, a visual evoked potential test, and then blood work for something he was rather vague on. I didn't push the issue on the last because I'm fairly certain he just didn't want me worrying before the results came back. I'm fine with that - don't need any more fuel on the fire.
I guess I'm just confused. I don't want MS, but I definitely have something going on. I'm terrified that my doctor, friends, and family will start to think I'm making things up. Honestly, I'd be willing to ignore EVERYTHING else if I could just run normally again. ):
Sorry for the essay, I'm just glad to write this out and get it off my chest. I'm scared of what could be wrong now that it looks like MS is unlikely. MS is scary, but I know there are worse things too. I suppose I'll just play the waiting game and see what happens.
Thanks for reading!
Oh, and as a side note my B-12 levels are fine.