New, Scared and Looking for Support
Posted: Sun Sep 30, 2018 7:35 am
Hi Everyone,
I'm new here, thanks everyone for sharing your stories. I've been reading the forums and it helps to know I am not alone. I'm 31F but for the last 3 years I've been experiencing what I think are MS symptoms. back at the end of 2015 I started having this odd feeling of dizziness sort of like i was swaying or falling backwards if i was sitting in a chair, my head would feel heavy too, these would come and go and I was terrified. It wasn't aggravated by head movement or eye movements, I went to my doctor and ENT everything ok with my ears, my GP chalked it up to vitamin d deficiency and gave me some tablets. I continue to have those feelings up until this day except they don't come as often or as strong.
Back in august 2017, i woke up one day after heavy exercise with the left side (waist down) completely numb. I had complete use of my leg but the feeling was just not there, sensations were altered, lots of burning etc. I went to the ER where they did an mri thinking it was a herniated disc and told me my discs were okay, they gave me a short package of 6 days oral steroids to take, after having the numbness for about 12 days it went away just as mysteriously as it came. after that I was completely back to normal but then 2018 came. In february I woke up one day with both my legs and feet having weird sensations everything from odd burning, feeling like there were wet spots, random tingling in patches all over my legs, even butt and genitals. This would mostly be aggravated after walking i also had a lot of lower back pain so i thought it was related. I also experienced a slight numbness but not fully just the skin feels different and some times tight. this has been happening ever since but it has gotten better, the episodes dont happen as often, it is greatly reduced and its nowhere as consistent as it was before. my right hand also developed some more pronounced numbness and i get the same tingling and odd sensations in that arm since then BUT i had an mri of my neck and i do have three herniated discs slighlty pusing on the spinal cord so not sure if the hand/arm is from that or something else. Ive also noticed some of this weird tingling in my stomach and back area. All this time I've walked without issues and (knock on wood) no weakness in either hand or legs. Recently i have been getting pain in my right eye socket and my eye feels tired and random ticks(ive had this symptom before about two years ago) all this time there has been something telling me there may be something else going on and my gp has finally agreed.
She is sending me for a brain MRI this tuesday and my first neuro appointment is on the 10th of october and Im really scared. Part of me will be relieved to get a diagnosis as this is giving me terrible anxiety and i think is better to know than not to but what terrifies me is what is to come if its ms, since most of my symptoms are related to the sensations in my body I am worried I will lose my ability to walk and this makes me terrified. I know MS affects everyone different but do most people that experience numbness in legs, altered sensations etc mean they will be physically disabled? I am so scared. this has been an extremely stressful year for me as I separated from my husband (divorce to come), my beloved dog passed away, changed jobs and I'm for the first time facing life by my own.
There's been something nagging me and I'd like feedback on your experiences, all throughout this Ive had a lumbar MRI and a cervical mri, because they were issued with a herniated disc prognosis in mind, the reports didnt mention if there were any lesions, but would a radiologist report lesions regardless of the reason for the mri or would they need to be actively looking for these?
sorry for the long post, this is the first time i've shared my story. thanks in advanced to those who read and reply!
I'm new here, thanks everyone for sharing your stories. I've been reading the forums and it helps to know I am not alone. I'm 31F but for the last 3 years I've been experiencing what I think are MS symptoms. back at the end of 2015 I started having this odd feeling of dizziness sort of like i was swaying or falling backwards if i was sitting in a chair, my head would feel heavy too, these would come and go and I was terrified. It wasn't aggravated by head movement or eye movements, I went to my doctor and ENT everything ok with my ears, my GP chalked it up to vitamin d deficiency and gave me some tablets. I continue to have those feelings up until this day except they don't come as often or as strong.
Back in august 2017, i woke up one day after heavy exercise with the left side (waist down) completely numb. I had complete use of my leg but the feeling was just not there, sensations were altered, lots of burning etc. I went to the ER where they did an mri thinking it was a herniated disc and told me my discs were okay, they gave me a short package of 6 days oral steroids to take, after having the numbness for about 12 days it went away just as mysteriously as it came. after that I was completely back to normal but then 2018 came. In february I woke up one day with both my legs and feet having weird sensations everything from odd burning, feeling like there were wet spots, random tingling in patches all over my legs, even butt and genitals. This would mostly be aggravated after walking i also had a lot of lower back pain so i thought it was related. I also experienced a slight numbness but not fully just the skin feels different and some times tight. this has been happening ever since but it has gotten better, the episodes dont happen as often, it is greatly reduced and its nowhere as consistent as it was before. my right hand also developed some more pronounced numbness and i get the same tingling and odd sensations in that arm since then BUT i had an mri of my neck and i do have three herniated discs slighlty pusing on the spinal cord so not sure if the hand/arm is from that or something else. Ive also noticed some of this weird tingling in my stomach and back area. All this time I've walked without issues and (knock on wood) no weakness in either hand or legs. Recently i have been getting pain in my right eye socket and my eye feels tired and random ticks(ive had this symptom before about two years ago) all this time there has been something telling me there may be something else going on and my gp has finally agreed.
She is sending me for a brain MRI this tuesday and my first neuro appointment is on the 10th of october and Im really scared. Part of me will be relieved to get a diagnosis as this is giving me terrible anxiety and i think is better to know than not to but what terrifies me is what is to come if its ms, since most of my symptoms are related to the sensations in my body I am worried I will lose my ability to walk and this makes me terrified. I know MS affects everyone different but do most people that experience numbness in legs, altered sensations etc mean they will be physically disabled? I am so scared. this has been an extremely stressful year for me as I separated from my husband (divorce to come), my beloved dog passed away, changed jobs and I'm for the first time facing life by my own.
There's been something nagging me and I'd like feedback on your experiences, all throughout this Ive had a lumbar MRI and a cervical mri, because they were issued with a herniated disc prognosis in mind, the reports didnt mention if there were any lesions, but would a radiologist report lesions regardless of the reason for the mri or would they need to be actively looking for these?
sorry for the long post, this is the first time i've shared my story. thanks in advanced to those who read and reply!