This Is MS Multiple Sclerosis Community: Knowledge & Support

Ally-

I am sorry about the loss. It seems that when ever there is a change in any phase of this disease, there is a mourning period and a readjustment stage. From what I've read in your previous posts, I feel confident that after the initial hurt, you will rebound. That you will plant more flowers for yourself in the future...one's you have not even thought of now.

kindest regards,

TOL

Hey TOL

Thanks for your input - I really appreciate it. You are right of course, any major life change takes some adjusting to - I just did not anticipate any negative feelings about this, so I think I surprised myself with how I felt! I was so looking forward to the absolute relief of not having to struggle every day to do something that I was no longer able to do and the constant worry that I was gonna drop a ball at work, and of course, that relief is there...I am feeling ok right now - I suppose I should expect some ups and downs before it settles and I find a new routine, and some new friends who don't work!
I should stop whinning about something that many people on this site would love to be this easy. I know I am fortunate, so I will suck it up and get on with things, because that is what we do, right? I will love my new life - my husband bought me a hammock, what's not to love? Except I still feel like I am on leave and will be going back to work soon.....But there is a little kernal of excitement starting to bubble somewhere inside now, and I am determined to nurture that kernal until it takes over...

Thanks to all who have listened and given support - it is your input and this site that has planted that little kernal...You guys are great.

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Al