I'm a 41 yr old. I have a 3 yr old & 5 yr old. I have been having pretty bad MS symptoms for about 3 years- mild symptoms for 5 years prior to that & I was just officially diagnosed. Denial is a powerful thing & I just put off all my problems as being over worked (I work very hard 14 hour shifts)
My current relapse has been going on for 6 weeks now. I am out of work. My kids are on laptops sitting next to me at the moment - great black Friday deals at Walmart!!! (older one starts school next year)
I am too weak to drive them to preschool, so they are sitting out. I am too weak to take them to the park even though it has warmed up. I am basically too weak to do most of the things we normally do, but I am just changing the things we do. I think I can continue to adjust our lives so that I can spend quality time with them even if I am not chasing them in the park. We read books. We pretend at home. We cook together. We make huge messes
Dad takes over the physical stuff. I'm pretty sure they are very happy. Things will improve for them once school starts.
I had a really good feeling something was VERY wrong with me when I got pregnant with my second child. My reason for having #2 was that I didn't want #1 to be alone if I passed away. We don't have extended family, so he really would have been all alone without a sibling. Was that fair to #2? I don't know, but I think if you ask most people they will tell you they are happy they were born
We considered adoption but found the cost/process horrible.
I am very fearful I have moved to a progressive form of this disease as I have had several bad bouts this last year. Even with that I am happy I had #2. My kids are best friends & it makes me all warm & fuzzy to watch them together. I sleep better at night knowing they have each other. They keep me pushing myself when I would prefer stay in bed. (I think that's a good thing)
Anywho, I wanted to chime in my positive ideas about #2. Your right that it takes a lot of soul searcing to decided & in the end you must do what you feel is the right thing (no one should influence you because it will be you pushing through the hard times alone)
Good luck- Sarah