Im currently going through much the same thought patterns so very much know hOw you feel! I was diagnosed in jan this year and my active fast paced social life has completely changed! I just want my life back, most days I cry myself to sleep and on good days am no longer myself! I too am abandoned all friends and family with exception of my husband.
My only hope is that I love me and keep that love going round and round within. That and cable tv!! Good thing I like my own company hu? Haha!!
I know I can't say anything to make you feel any better, but I do hear you bud!! Sending much love light and magic your way! xx
Love is all you need.... xx