Hi everyone - This is my leap into accepting diagnosis and identify as a person living with MS. I have been searching the sites for about a year now, after hearing "Possible MS" about 2 years ago, with the confirmed diagnosis in October 04. Looking back, my story is much like so many of you - odd things happening since my late teens; but always attributed to other possibilities - then they were resolved and forgotten about with an "oh, well, guess it was nothing". So here I am at the 50 year mark, and wondering if it really was MS all those years ago, and would my prognosis be different if I had pursued looking for answers earlier. Over the past two years, my family has lost 2 brothers and our parents, my MS diagnosis came in between the accidental loss of my brother and dad from cancer. I have not had the energy or desire to focus on my own health, and I really don't think I have been able to focus properly on grief. In the past two weeks my MS doc has recommended medications (now there is a rush for treatment )- so it is making me take this a lot more seriously. I think when I decided on the Avonex, I could no longer deny that I am not OK. It is a scary thing for me to consider that I may be someday dependent on others for care and support, when I have been the "helper" and the one in control and cared for others in my family. So....I am new to signing on, new to posting and looking forward to getting as much information as possible.