havingms, It's wonderful to meet any MSer who has hope, hope enough to act on it. Welcome to the fold of those moving the other direction.
Lexy, So true. It's such a joy to me to see the re-emerging glints of mental sharpness. Political opinions, playful jabs and affectionate teasing, occasional mention of small plans for the future, and the best thing...he gets jokes again. Not all of them, but many of them. About the "glacial" pace, our guys need that replenishing time for their souls as well as their bodies---and so do we. I sometimes wonder if watching the cyclical dips is worse than living it. Those up days may nourish our psyches as much as theirs. I find myself very relaxed and well-rested during those times and tense/irritable during the dips.
I don't know if your Jim can remember how he was before starting the CAP; Steve can't remember how he was at all. He remembers that he had 2 neuro-psych evaluations that were about as depressing as the diagnosis, and he knows he is not headed in that direction anymore. That's about it. You and I, though, we will never forget. Joyce