Welcome to ThisIsMS, Sarah.
First, take a deep breath. You have had a rough time. We look forward to getting to know you, too.
Next, in answer to your request for book recommendations, I suggest you start your reading with two books: Multiple Sclerosis: The History of a Disease
by T. Jock Murray, OC, MD, and I think The Multiple Sclerosis Diet Book
by Roy Swank, MD, PhD and Barbara Dugan is a good second book to read or even have. You may be able to get these through your local library. You may find other suggestions in the Reading Nook forum here at ThisIsMS.
Finally, in keeping with my belief that excess insulin plays a major role in MS, I encourage you to eat a healthy diet (a good idea whether or not a person has MS). Many people find that diet can influence the symptoms of MS. In my opinion, this means a low-carb diet -- removing all sugar (including beer, wine, etc. which have sugar), removing all artificial sweeteners, including sugar alcohols like sorbitol, xylitol, etc. (These promote insulin production, too.), removing all trans fats (These also increase insulin.), and removing white flour, white bread, white potatoes, white rice (in fact, all carbs so far as possible) from your diet. My suspicion is that Fatty Liver Disease is also involved, since visceral fat (belly fat) secretes cytokines (like poison to the internal organs), which lead to increased insulin, which leads to inflammation which leads to more visceral fat… And the cycle goes round and round. Diet is important; in fact, you may find the account of Dr. Terry Wahls and her dramatic improvement interesting (http://www.TerryWahls.com
By the way, I was diagnosed with MS based on symptoms and my fourth MRI (my first three MRIs were normal as was an EMG and evoked potential testing).
All the best to you.
My hypothesis: excess insulin (hyperinsulinemia) plays a major role in MS, as developed in my initial post: http://www.thisisms.com/forum/general-discussion-f1/topic1878.html "Insulin – Could This Be the Key?"