I sometimes wonder why things happen and I don't like thinking why me but sometimes I cannot help it, like today I am reminded of when I first found out I had MS and a few months later I find out my long term Girlfriend started cheating on me with someone else which sent almost sent me down a path of depression and now I see her with the guy she was cheating on me with.
Took one look at me and laughed and telling me it was all in my head and I was just trying to gain pitty and wasn't a real man.
I still sometimes find it hard to even drag myself out of bed and catch myself going around and around in my head what I could have done differently or what did I do for her to fall out of love with me and so on.
It had gotten worse since last month when I turned 35 last month and realized I had been with one woman whom I fell for and was truly my first love and been with her for 10 years.
I am sorry.. this sounds like I am complaining but it has been weighing me down and if this is the wrong place I apologize.