-All these years living with MS has actually made me forget how well i earlier was !! I'am not 100% nor 99% thats what i always feel, but just moving on.
Dec 14, 2011
I do have a cerebral lesion. I thought perhaps... . I still have terrible pain and fatigue. After a poor exam at the neurologist I just started Yoga and Meditation. It's so nice to enjoy those things again, regardless of the price at times. Preceding the realization I am writing about, I stopped my opioid pain medication. I had been on it a long, long time, too long, it was a high dose. I didn't like that all I thought about was me. I had always been a healer. That is what I considered myself. At the end of my work life I was so upset. I had put so much, my entire life it seemed, into my career. I was so focused on my needs I couldn't or wouldn't meet the needs of my family. It was a crisis for me, a huge crisis. I talked to the place where I live. I know it sounds strange, but it is a beautiful place, I love it and it is singularly isolated. I did not look strange, because no one, that I know of, could hear me or see me. I asked for direction and worked hard to regain my sense of being. That is when strange things began to happen, it did take a while though. Then, boom. I am careful to take good care of my family now. I do work till exhaustion, but I am that way. I am so very happy. Times were hard beyond my imagining. Now they are not. This is outside any hope or idea I could have had. I am eternally happy.